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Oh no, not again!!! How many times do we say to ourselves to stop this craziness? Why do you have to do it over and over again to the same person? Don't you love yourself? These are the questions I asked to a 19 year old girl. She's been involved to a married man aged 34 years old. Last year she met this man at the racing competition and she was the muse posing, taking pictures with the sponsors and drivers. She's really beautiful and intelligent in school. After a couple of weeks, I saw her dating this man and she told me that they're already having a relationship and they ar living together. I was also happy for her finding her right man. Last year October, she revealed to me the truth about the real personality of this man and what's going on to their relationship. She told me that she can't hold on any longer. Her boyfriend is a married man. And she's 4 months pregnant that time. When the man learned that she's pregnant, her boyfriend started to change his ways. He never come home to her everynight and she always see that her boyfriend is having an affair with another young woman who was her ex schoolmate. The day she told me everything, her boyfriend gave her money to abort the baby!  Asking me what to do and where she must hide.  I advised her no to do it. But it's not my body, not my baby, and also her job and family will be very affected if they learned about the real situation. She's very afraid of her parents specially her big brother. I even wrote a letter pretending that i'm the baby telling her how I love her and his/her dad. Telling her how painful it is being tortured and smashed and the feeling of what the baby can do for his/her mom if she gave him/her the chance to live. She decided not to abort the baby. I was very happy and glad to hear a positive answer from her. We even think of great people's names for the baby.  Wednesday morning, I recieved a phone call from a nurse in the hospital telling me to pick her up and take her home. I asked the nurse a lot of questions but the nurse can't tell me what had happened. So I was there in the hospital waiting for her to come out. They told me to wait for awhile because she's still asleep. The doctor told me what happened and I cried. I thought she really decided to keep the baby. She even assured me that she'll never do such a thing to her baby. I don't know if I am going to get angry at her or understand her or slap her face or embrace her. I don't know! I have mixed emotions, imagining what my reaction and her reaction will be if I do this and that to her. She came out of the operating room weak and so shy. She can't even look at my eyes. I called the taxi and while we're inside the taxi, I can't speak a word or can't even ask a single question just, "where are you heading now"? She told me to take her to her parents house and pleaded to never tell her parents what happened. Good thing, her parents are out and only her younger brother's at home. I told her to take a rest and we'll talk later when she regained strength. I know it was also hard for her to admit that what she did is wrong. After month of recovering from her silliness, I heard that she's again seeing her ex boyfriend and again got pregnant for 3 months this time. PREGNANT TO THE SAME MAN!  Oh I don't want to talk to her anymore. Finish!!!! She came to me one day very weak and asked me if she can stay to my place for 5 hours. She confessed, she did it again! I cried and slapped her face and shouted at her as if I am her mom. I know I've been very harsh on her. I did that to wake her up! She told me that she'll be going to Tokyo and live there in peace. I never heard any from her again. She even changed her Celphone number. I always pray for her to find the right man and to make the right decision and find her happiness. I hope she's not seeing the same man again!  Simply J |
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4/2/2007 4:59 pm |
Oh no not again! Why do you have to give a comment that I don't uinderstand! Simply J
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4/2/2007 6:04 pm |
that's a very tragic senario.. I wrote earlier about "choices'... and we truly have to be of awareness of whats involved in the choices we make... it is within many to say one thing ina compassionate conversation and find their challenge within choice are with mixed variables.. that's the time she should have stood back and faced herself.. and what are the prediciments that evolved.. and to turn and do so again.. knowing beforehand what the end result can be.. thus to dive into full steam ahead with emoption open full blast and mind shut down to the over-all awareness.. what she is now faced with is the life long wonder of thought about what the life that lived in her may have been.. and the acts of herself repeating the same acts again.. let's hope that her choice to move benefits her cuase in self..
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Your really like a mom even on me, good thing you can't see me personally coz if we are face to face i am sure you will slap my face many times for me to wake up  Well thank you and have a god day...sorry for my ranting and thank you for listening... You laugh at me bec i am different, i laugh at you because you're all the same
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You were right to see the situation through the life that was growing, and wanting to live... however, a baby first, then a child growing up, need a secure environment to become a confident person... if the parents can't guarantee that, it may turn out to be a life of sufference and injustice, and hearing your story, my feeling is that both parents weren't mature and responsible enough themselves to guarantee that... in such a situation, the choice made may be the least of the two evil...  the flying squirrel strikes back       
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4/3/2007 6:34 am |
that's a very tragic senario.. I wrote earlier about "choices'... and we truly have to be of awareness of whats involved in the choices we make... it is within many to say one thing ina compassionate conversation and find their challenge within choice are with mixed variables.. that's the time she should have stood back and faced herself.. and what are the prediciments that evolved.. and to turn and do so again.. knowing beforehand what the end result can be.. thus to dive into full steam ahead with emoption open full blast and mind shut down to the over-all awareness.. what she is now faced with is the life long wonder of thought about what the life that lived in her may have been.. and the acts of herself repeating the same acts again.. let's hope that her choice to move benefits her cuase in self.. They say that married man and single mens approach to a woman is different. Married man is not afraid of nothing while single men are afraid of what will happen. So she was not warned or even aware of what the outcome will be! I hope that she learned her lessons. What i'm afraid of is, she might not love herself anymore and feel selfpity and do the same thing over and over again and this time with many different men.  I'm still hoping that she'll remember all my words to her and live with it. Simply J
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4/3/2007 6:41 am |
Your really like a mom even on me, good thing you can't see me personally coz if we are face to face i am sure you will slap my face many times for me to wake up Well thank you and have a god day...sorry for my ranting and thank you for listening... You always call me that way! Your situation has a big difference from her. She believes in herself too much and she don't have friends. I am the only one who is always aware of what she's doing because I have to see that all of my staff are doing great in their job. Because i'm the eldest staff, I can ask any stupid questions through jokes and funny stories. Anyway, I don't have to slap you!  Just looking at my piercing eyes says everything! I don't have to hurt you! You're so cute! Wait 'til I get there at sasabunutan kita! Simply J
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4/3/2007 6:44 am |
Yes, you're correct! As long as they know where they are going then they can live their happy life to the fullest! Simply J
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4/3/2007 6:53 am |
You were right to see the situation through the life that was growing, and wanting to live... however, a baby first, then a child growing up, need a secure environment to become a confident person... if the parents can't guarantee that, it may turn out to be a life of sufference and injustice, and hearing your story, my feeling is that both parents weren't mature and responsible enough themselves to guarantee that... in such a situation, the choice made may be the least of the two evil... You can be a very good father or a parent for your children. You are so wise and know a lot about life. Thanks for your comment, you're always welcome to my blog! Simply J
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4/3/2007 7:00 am |
Welcome to my blog as a first timer your comment says everything. People forgot to love. Not only love for the opposite \bsexo?\b but also love for children, family and nature. People are becoming selfish and never realized what they are throwing away an opportunity that nobody can not have. There are lot's of couple who don't have children. They adopt and give love to these children. Some are lucky to concieve a baby but never give them a chance to see the world to enjoy. Simply J
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She decided to do that for many reasons as you've stated. Nobody will hire you if you're pregnant. Giving birth costs alot of money including childrens things, diapers, milk and many money. Presence of a father is very important specially for a son. You can be a very good father or a parent for your children. You are so wise and know a lot about life. Thanks for your comment, you're always welcome to my blog! I was lucky to have two loving parents, who taught me respect for life. But I realized that because of my "easy" life up to now, I still have plenty to learn about reality, and I am actually finding AsiaFind a well of wisdom. Thanks to all. the flying squirrel strikes back
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4/3/2007 3:53 pm |
Dear Jalo, thank you very much for your warm words, I really appraciate them, it gives me confidence for what is to come. I was lucky to have two loving parents, who taught me respect for life. But I realized that because of my "easy" life up to now, I still have plenty to learn about reality, and I am actually finding AsiaFind a well of wisdom. Thanks to all. I may not be agood writer here in blog land but Ii'm willing to share all of my experiences of people i've get in touched. I think that sharing these kinds of stories will help many readers to realize the importance of life and love. You are very lucky to have loving parents that made you who you are now and thirsty of truth and wisdom. Nanika attara, itsudemo watakushi ni sodan sh[i!1l]te minai ka? Simply J
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4/3/2007 7:40 pm |
I agree in your opinion too! But I am the person who will not insist my own opinion to somebody. I always give options. To choose the right from wrong! I am not her mother to tell her what to do but i'm hoping that all advises I gave her will live in her memory before doing the same thing. She also have to love herself first! She's free to do what she wants as long as she won't do it again of the same man. I thought the first abortion was already a lesson for her. Knowing that the father of the baby is immatured or unwilling to stand for the baby! But there she is again doing the same thingh, same person and the same friend to run to in case she got a problem. I never turn down a friend! I make sure that I explained everything the circumstances and the outcome of what she do.If she cannot take good care of herself, why do the same mistake? She knows very well that she can't work in her preganant situation. She knows that nobody will assist her whatever happens unless her parents help her and understand her. I am not always around and not the father to take the responsibility. The first mistake shows everything that she must learn1 But she did it again all for the name of lust and immatured love. Now do you think that my advise to her is unagreeable? She don't have to give birth to the baby is she can't take the responsibility but why do it again. What I fear is that she might do it again over and over again with different men. She's already a grown up and she should think of herself from now! Simply J
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4/4/2007 2:02 am |
JLo,i feel so awful with the story... in my course we're supposed to save lives...tsk..tsk...darn!!! though i know its legal in some countries, but i just wish her luck wherever she maybe....hope there's no "oops i did it again" nxt time..
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4/4/2007 4:11 pm |
Aren't we there to help people who needs us? I can't turn down any people that's why i'm abused verbally or mentally. I did what a can to help her realize her mistakes. Whatever follows after that, is her own decision. She's not like other young girl friends that I knew. ShE's so quiet and never open her life to us. I was just too insisting to get her sympathy and I always wanted to know how she's doing. Maybe through that kind of kindness I took herrout from her cocoon and opened up and told me everything. I never thought I was the last person she'll ever run to during her hard times. I was happy to know that she trusted me everything. Maybe before I return my country on July , maybe she'll give me a call. I am still hoping that she's safe. Simply J
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4/4/2007 4:31 pm |
JLo,i feel so awful with the story... in my course we're supposed to save lives...tsk..tsk...darn!!! though i know its legal in some countries, but i just wish her luck wherever she maybe....hope there's no "oops i did it again" nxt time.. I don't know why it's legal in this country. It has advantage and disadvantage. Before performing such action the woman needs the approval of the father of the baby. It cost too much around ￥100,000 = $1,100 = Around 50,000 pesos! Lot's of money. You lost a baby and a money and also moral. I hope she'll be very careful. I also taught her the safest way to do s*x!  Simply J
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4/5/2007 9:45 pm |
I know what you mean...and they are already grown up people who should be aware of themselves. I don't insist my ideas, opinions, suggestions, but I always wait for them to come to me ask advise or want hear what i've told them before. It was like giving them a review all the time. The problem is they depend too much on me. As if I have to decide for them which I know is not right. I tolerated their lazy mind not to think on their own. I may waste my time and I can wait for them to change. Because I believe that change is the only way to solve the problem. If they can't change, at least I've tried my best to warn them or give them some enlightenment. Abortion is one time expenses but will prick your conscience the rest of your life. Giving birth is also a life-long investment but also a treasure and pride of a parent. We may agree or disagree to a certain point, I realize that there's a big difference to a male and female thinking. Men are more on intellectual and women are more on emotional. And that's very cool!Simply J
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I guess that's the reason why "love is blind"...not the responsibilities afterall but the "call of the flesh"... Next time! do yourself a favor...never commit such tolerance again, only to be forsaken of what the good deeds you have in mind... Just be safe out there and be nice! Take care and have a nice easter sunday!
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4/8/2007 1:20 pm |
You are a caring and thoughtful lady Miss Jalo. When the student is ready the teacher appears! You are often that teacher and support Respectfully, Stan a student of life 
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4/9/2007 5:55 am |
I guess that's the reason why "love is blind"...not the responsibilities afterall but the "call of the flesh"... Next time! do yourself a favor...never commit such tolerance again, only to be forsaken of what the good deeds you have in mind... Just be safe out there and be nice! Take care and have a nice easter sunday! Love is blind, call of the flesh....or isang linggong pagibig! Good thing this process is not legal in our country and we have no money to pay to do it. But there are hilot and doktor-kagaw! We cannot stop it! They should love thmeselves first before they love somebody! Belated Happy Easter and sana you found a lot of hidden easter eggs! Simply J
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4/9/2007 6:12 am |
You are a caring and thoughtful lady Miss Jalo. When the student is ready the teacher appears! You are often that teacher and support Respectfully, Stan I always help, I help them but I can't help myself. I always make them my priority than myself and always ended to be hurt at the end. I don't want to blame them for their decisions as long as they know their limitations. These people that I helped may leave me or hate me or curse me but they always have a nice place inside my heart to return anytime they want to! Simply J
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4/10/2007 11:06 pm |
It is not to ask why, but only how we can help others.
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4/11/2007 4:18 pm |
It is not to ask why, but only how we can help others. I always check your profile and you never turn them on. Tell me what's new! Why? Why are you hiding? I miss you my funny, poetic, naughty and sweet friend! I'm always waiting for your mail! Please I need your mails....Simply J
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4/13/2007 10:39 pm |
HOW are you and how's your lovelife now! I always check your profile and you never turn them on. Tell me what's new! Why? Why are you hiding? I miss you my funny, poetic, naughty and sweet friend! I'm always waiting for your mail! Please I need your mails....my profile is off due to too many others seeking love or something like it from one who has no more to give but to one(and this one I now love, now and forever, she and I both agree to be "off"); TGFB, thank God for blog !
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4/14/2007 7:17 pm |
WOOOOOW! Yes of course I recieve you everlasting mails with flowers with it all the time. I always can count on you and also thanks for giving me points. So you mean to say that I shouldn't turn off my profile because I still have many love to give! Instead I should see my ex here in real life so in love with his wife????? But i'm used to it. Thanks anyway for always beeing there eventhough your profile's off. I love you friend! Simply J
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4/17/2007 8:18 pm |
The love is mutual, my friend, so I say, I love you too, friend!! The profile was my source of too many correspondences; plus, I was fortunate to find this love and this one I love, and I agree, it is best to both be "off" while we explore fully with each other if we indeed are "the ones"; I can tell you, she is rare, indeed, and that is why she attracts me like a magnet!! You know how to contact me, profile or not, as I have before used AsiaFind email to share my regular email and IM; I give you the standing invitation, remember, lunch or dinner next time you are in San Francisco ! ! I sense we will meet someday and it will be such a treat!!
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