My Ideal Person:
a boyMonday, April 17, 2006. It’s a Sunny day and the sunlight is very warm. But I make a mistake again and worry along the problem. I can’t pardon myself, I think that is a terrible mistake. I start to love someone slowly, but he had a girlfriend. I don’t damage their happiness and become the third of them. I tell myself that is impossible for us. Why don’t I control my sensation? I look like to lose the reason. My God, Please help me! I don’t face him bravely, I want to escape here and leave him. Maybe that is a good method for us.

I called with my parents yesterday, she asked when would you go home? At first, I got ready to go home in May. One thing changed my thinking, my mother said that my neighbor introduced a boy to me, they requested me to go home and meet him. I didn’t want to meet him and then go home. I said that I would go home at the end of this year and we also refused their kindness. “You have gotten the marriage age, your friends and classmates have gotten married, and then they all have procreated the children. Why don’t you worry about it? You should look for a boyfriend and get married as soon as possible.” She said. I didn’t know how to answer her? “Don’t worry, everything will be right, and then I will look for a good boyfriend and get married with him as soon as possible. I will look for it at home when I get home at the end of this year. ”I said.